Say It Loud!

I want to be Beyoncé! I want to be a hot momma of three who lives life on her own terms. There… I said it… that is my ultimate goal short sweet and to the point!  As I start this blog I am a mother of 1, a

beautiful 3 month old baby boy. My maternity leave will end in a few weeks. I’ve been praying, affirming, practicing gratitude, playing the lottery all in the hope of finding a way to spend more time at home with my little love bug and still be able to pay my mortgage. Most law of attraction material that I have come across is written after the author has been successful. I want to share my experiences as I go through it, as I dream, hope, and pray my way to living my life on my own terms.

 

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Inspired Creation

I started this blog almost a year ago. Hoping to manifest a HUGE lottery win so I did not have to put my son in daycare and go back to work. No luck on that front yet. I am still a working mom, still tired ,longing for more money, more time with my son. A better relationship with my husband. etc.etc.etc.

A few weeks ago something clicked. I can not keep doing the same thing and expecting a different result. I have been putting my Kindle Unlimited subscription to work!

So I was searching for a book about Magic and the law of attraction because obviously I needed to do something differently. I was searching for a book that I had already read, but instead discovered a new book by this author. She had previously written under a pen name. In this new book she revealed her true identity and her journey and ups and downs with the law of attraction. Wow I was floored and empowered to create something that will earn me money down the road.

Inspired by other books on my Kindle Unlimited I have decided to explore passive income streams! Multiple streams of income that I Create, that once established flow to me effortlessly on a monthly basis. I have not been profitable…yet. Something feel s different, I feel inspired to take control over my life

Law Of Attraction Digital Book List

I am grateful to live in a digital age where I can have multiple books in my pocketbook & I can browse for new titles from the comfort of my home.

For Christmas a few years ago I was gifted a Kindle  and this was a useful tool to start exploring the Law of Attraction.  My kindle allows me to carry several law of attraction books in my pocket.

Even if you don’t have a Kindle you can use an existing device and download the Kindle app from the Google Play Store or The Apple app store. I almost ALWAYS have my phone. I have an android device so I downloaded the Kindle from the Google Play Store.

Amazon offers a free trial of kindle unlimited. During my free trial I discovered the author Richard Dotts. I enjoyed reading his books because they are  short and easy to digest. This really helped spark my interest in Law of Attraction. He has quite a few books available on Kindle Unlimited. A few that I have read include:

Mastering the Manifestation Paradox

Afternoon Manifestations

Today I Am Free: Manifesting Through Deep Inner Changes

 

These books are a little longer and sometimes I use the help of amazon’s audible service to finish them. Audible also offers a free trial. I actually cancelled audible some time ago, but what is cool is I can still access the audible books I received as part of the free trial. Some other books that I have enjoyed along the way include:

Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown

The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success Deepak Chopra

The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire Deepak Chopra

 

Happy Reading! Happy Manifesting! Enjoy a blessed life!

 

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Current Situation: A New Earth

This is my 2nd week reading ANew Earth by Eckhart Tolle. My goal was to finish it this week. That book feels so extremly heavy to me…which I think is the point. The book is pretty much enticing the reader to lean into fear, lean in to anxiety feel it and accept it completely. On the other side of this is a Peace that surpasses all understanding. I am still going to finish this book this week but I am going to find a more “feel good” book to read alongside it.

Work in Progress: Changing my Relationship with Anxiety

The Anxiety I feel is real to me. Ignoring it will not make it go away. Fighting it or rationalizing it could make it worse. So accept it and work on how I respond to it.

I had my 2nd session with a therapist this week, this was the advice she gave me. This is also the message I have been recieving via the headspace app.

I’m going to keep mediating and keep attending therapy. I feel better today than I did at the start of the week. I feel a peace and a stillness that has started to permeate my life. As I reflect on this week I am truly blessed.

Some quick notes on changes I’ve noticed:

My baby boy slept through the night in his own bed. It left me more rested and ready to deal with the day.

A cousin stepped in to help my grandmother navigate transportation to and from dialysis. So this is a huge relief and a lil less responsibility for me.

Current Situation: Setting Goals & Chasing Peace

So I have been doing really well with meditating. The headspace app helps a lot. Today I did day 4 of their anxiety app it advises noticing changes in your posture throughout the day as a way to practice presence. I am working on that today

I am super busy at work and dashing out of the door making sure the baby has food and bottles, husband has breakfast and the dog has food. Then I got caught up in the hustle and bustle of work. It was noon and I hadn’t had anything to eat or drinkk anything. I felt like I might pass out which made me feel very anxious. Although I had lunch, I didn’t feel like my body caught up. I had to leave work early to go home and crash. Working on my mental health has been great, but I also need to work on my physical health. I mean I am a nursing mama and I need to eat! So I am adding to my goals for this week…drink a glass of water and have a nutritous snack within an hour of waking up.

Current Situation: Phoneless in NJ

So in an attempt to avoid driving, I turned to Uber this morning. I left my phone in the Uber. I was at my son’s daycare “stranded” I had to call my Husband from my work cell phone(thank GOD I had it on me) for him to send me an Uber.

I never realized how naked I could feel without my phone, especially in the face of this anxiety I feel about driving. The story I kept telling myself is well if I absolutely NEED to get somewhere, I can always Uber (just for now of course). No cell phone=no Uber=Vulnerable as Hell right now.

Fortunately after a long day of e-mails back and forth with Uber Support they were able to locate my phone it is in New York…I have to go pick it up. I freaked for a little…then meditated.

I was in a good spot when I broke the news to my husband that I needed to go to NYC to pick up my phone. He was surprisingly calm. His response…no problem let’s go in the morning. I breathed a huge sigh of relief.

It was temporary.

My grandmother is 94 years old and has just started dialysis. I hear dialysis is hard on anyone. I am concerned. She has been very independent thus far.

I went from the free trial of the h headspace app to the subscription of headspace. (side note I emailed help@headspace.com and they sent me a promo code).

Meditating and praying for resillance

Current Situation: Setting Goals & Giving Thanks

I like most people look at my life and most of the times wish things were different. Instead of actively changing them I just “go with the f low”. I just survive. Without working to change anything. I find when I challenge myself with things like 7 days of gratitude , 30 days of meditation, or moving up the Emotional Reference Scale. I make time in my day to do inner work . When I am not actively working on something and I have free time. I end up online shopping or spending a lot of time on social media. Every Sunday I will set personal goals. Every Monday I will set professional goals.

Personal Goals for this week

1. Finish reading the Power of Now
2. Meditate using headspace daily
3. Dance for 10 minutes everyday
4. Read the A to Z steps to abundance daily.

Current Situation: I Stopped Meditating

My life got hectic. My husband had to go away for a work trip. I panicked! I feel overwhelmed day to day with his help. I wasn’t sure how I was going to get to manage by myself. I felt anxious about driving. I felt anxious about being the sole caretaker of my son with no family nearby to lend a hand. I felt anxious about me sobbing on the side of the road while my son was waiting for me at daycare.

So I outsourced driving. I hired someone by the hour to drive me to and from work. It was expensive, but it allowed me to be productive at worked. It also helped me to sleep well at night knowing that I didn’t have to drive.

I took a few hours off of work everyday to come home, prep dinner, tackle some chores before I went to pick up my son. That allowed me to pick him up, relax and enjoy some quality time.

Outsourcing driving only temporarily solved a small part of the problem. I know I am not living my best life. I know I am not being the best wife, mom, friend or sister I can be. I want to overcome this.

When my life got hectic, I stopped meditating. This was the absolutely, positively, worse thing that I could have done. When life got hectic I should have made Meditating my number one priority. In the midst of the chaos, I threw a shoe at my husband and left a small cut on his face, I lost my wedding band, & spent a lot of money paying someone to drive. I wish I would have spent some time centering myself.  If I could provide some advice to anyone else having a stressful week, or if things seem “too busy” take some time out to MEDITATE, MEDITATE, MEDITATE! I am also practicing being present in the moment, I am revisiting the book Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. At my husband’s insistence, I have also scheduled an appointment with a Psychologist.  Will keep you posted on my progress. Have a blessed day.

Current Situation: Wish List

Decided to throw together a wish list and enjoy watching the universe deliver it to me…will keep you posted

1. Bone Broth for the Baby
2. Masonry Work at the House
3. Landscaping at the house
4. Patio Furniture
5. Outdoor Area Rug
6. New AC and Furnace
7. Bedroom area rug
8. $250,000
9. House Cleaning 2x per week
10. Lotion from the body shop
11. New Shoes
12. Organized Kitchen
13. Organized Bedroom
14. Organized Dining room
15. Organized Bathroom
16. New sheets
17. New comforter
18. Drama Free Driving
19. Instant Pot
20. Flowers for the entry
21. Flowers for the Deck

Work in Progress Meditation Day 20

Well I have been trying to meditate at least once a day. Somettimes I only get about 3 minutes in. Today I got about 30 minutes in. It was GREAT!

Cool thingss have been happening.

Yesterday was mother’s day. I had grand plans of showing up around noon to meet my grandmother after church with flowers. Noon turned into 6:00pm and all of the florist were closed. Bummer.

As I was walking to my grandmother’s house a woman stopped to wish me happy Mother’s day. She was pushing a shopping cart. I was pushing a stroller with my son screaming his head off. The woman stopped her cart and gave me a long stem pink rose. I was humbled and delighted. This was a sure sign of abundance. Although the florist was closed the universe found a way for me to give my grandmother a flower for mother’s day.

Wishing everyone a blessed abundant evening. I love you good night.